Sorry for not keeping you guys updated in so long. With the school this and band that, there was no way.... Okay fine! I was on MySpace the whole time! is that what you wanted to hear?! Sorry if I may sound as bitchy as I always do, but since I will never post anything on here, why bother? I'M A DISGRACE TO SHINJI'S MOM, DAMMIT!!

But just to keep you guys informed on what I've been up to:

Band's cool. We played at five football games so far and have pwnd the crap out of the other bands. Our next game is this Thursday. Yeah, I hate it when it's on a school night because we get home at ten and I have to wake up at five in the morning. I go insane if I don't get enough sleep.

Speaking of my mental health, I've been slowly going downhill since school started. I suspect my frineds to be total bastards who ignore me, but I can't be so sure. Then there's this dude in band that I like. Well, he has a girlfriend, and I've been acting all depressed and wondering if anybody outside of the Internet will even care about me. And I hate my therapist! I mean, if I tell him that the medication he gave me makes me drowsy or that we think it's responsible for my passing out at band camp, he'll say that I'm just blaming the medication and that I'm not really taking it at all! And just for that, he doubled my dosage and threatened me with an injection! So just because I ADMITTED that I didn't take it at one point, I can't even gain the trust of my own doctor?!

The homecoming dance sucked..... Well, to me it did. The guy that I stalk, dah, I mean, like was there. My friends were sqeeing and saying that they were dancing with him and saying how it's too bad that I wasn't there. I don't even know why I bother going to dances if it always ends up a disaster.

In other words, I'm so fucked up right now.